If you would have asked me about a year ago if I was arrogant, I would have said no, but today I can admit that I was. In retrospect, I realized my arrogance was just a defense mechanism. My arrogance hid the hurt and pain I had felt for so long. Since I did not receive the love I always longed for God made me prosperous. You see, when God knows that you are lacking in one area of your life, He will make up for it in other areas of your life. Often times, we do not realize His blessings or the flourishing areas of our lives because we only concentrate on the negative areas of our lives.
Also, I recently read somewhere that God knows what you need when you need it. Often enough He will only give you what and who you need in life when you need it. I read somewhere that He does this for two reasons. The first is because you may not be able to handle having all that you ever wanted. The second reason is, He wants you to remain dependent on Him. Think about it, how many times have you prayed and asked God for something, then when you received it, you suddenly stopped praying to God and instead, you began spending more time with what He blessed you with? Remember, God is a jealous God and doesn’t want you to put anything or anyone before Him. When you do, He has no problem removing it from your life.
So now back to me being arrogant. In my early twenties, anything I touched turned to gold. When I worked in sales, I was the best sales person. When worked as a software computer technician, I effectively handled the most client calls. When I attended trade school and college, I was always recognized as a student leader and for my academic excellence. Not having an intimate relationship with God, I just automatically assumed that all my achievements were simply because of my own efforts, not anything else. I thought I had the touch; I thought I was smart, fearless and invincible.
So after I accomplished more in five years than what most people I know accomplish in their entire lives: I hit rock bottom mentally, spiritually, physically and emotionally. Let me tell you, it was extremely scary because although it seemed that I had everything I ever wanted, prayed and asked God for, somehow I still felt empty and I could not understand why.
While going through this scary experience, God made me realize that it was Him all along that allowed me to achieve all that I achieved and obtained all that I obtained; Not me. God also made me realize that all I had as wonderful and as it may have seemed, didn’t mean anything because I did not put Him first. God was not at the center of my life, my achievements, people and material things were at the center and that needed to change.
God allowed me to achieve so much in such a short period of time that at one point I began to judge the people who had not even done a tenth of what I had accomplished. I began to see them as lazy or not wanting anything out of life. After all, if I was able to accomplish all that I had, what could possibly be stopping them? But now God had me at a point in my life where for the very first time ever I was scared and didn’t know what to do about it. This was extremely unusual for me because I seem to always have the answers or always knew what do but this time I didn’t and that frightened me. This is when God told me to stop judging people because I didn’t understand their struggles and what He has asked them to endure. He said He wanted me to help His children create and sustain more intimate relationships with Him so they can begin to fulfill His will for their lives. But first, I had to get to know Him!
If I could explain what it is like establishing a relationship with God I would have to say it is different. One thing that took me the longest to learn is when dealing with God, I had to suspend all judgment, reasoning and logic. Honestly the most difficult part of establishing an intimate relationship with God is learning to trust God with every single aspect of my life (Still working on this daily).
So how did I get to where I am today? I decided to trust God and let Him lead my life. I made the choice to put Him first and put Him at the center of everything I did and anyone I had a relationship with. There were times that God told me to do things that logically did not make sense to my educated self, but guess what I trusted Him and the rewards were abundant.
So today, I am eager to help people not because I feel sorry for them, the money I receive or because it makes me feel good, but I genuinely help others now because I know what it feels to be down and out while wanting more yet feeling stuck. I now know what it feels like to be empty yet my life appeared as if it was so fulfilled.
So my advice to you: Trust God because with Him you will live a more abundant life. He will send the people and all the resources you need to fulfill His will for your life. I cannot promise you that life will be easy, but I can promise you that it will be worth it. Why wouldn’t God change you and allow you to live a more abundant life? He did for me. He changed me from being arrogantly ignorant to having humility and seeking wisdom!
Understand that your life is a gift,
Life Success Specialist